The Void

There is this void within that dosent seem to get filled. nothin or no one seems to be able to fill up this void.

this constant emptiness... this loneliness...

no one can fill it up or may be someone can! either ways its just very irritating i'd say and im sick of it....

She's Dying

My aunt is dying and there isn't anything we can do... she refuses to accept that the cancer is beyond much repair.

She might not be my aunt by blood but she has been nothin less than a aunt and probably more than dat to me...

i dont know wat to do or say... but i know i not of anything that i can do.... i will miss her everyday... but the only thing that i pray for is that wen she goes, she goes as painlessly as possible and at peace....

i dont know how to handle my mother... she is breaking for she cant see Aunt M go this way. Mum's other fear is that i might too die of cancer for i too smoke like Aunt M... i want to quit for my mum's sake and i am unable too for i ...

What does one do? Life and its surprises are beyond our understanding... i dont ask God 'why her', for there must be some reason why he chose her and thank God it isnt someone else who has no one to call their own and or feel loved... i dont even know what i am saying but i know this much i cannot fathom why such little time is left for her to be around...

i will miss her...