People and their insecurities very often scare me.

People and their insecurities very often scare me. 

Why would you be uncomfortable if saw a loved one happy with someone, being taken care of, loved and pampered? How can it bother you or upset you to see them laugh and their eyes twinkle with knowledge that they are royalty? 

What would you want to question that equation, as long as you’re not getting hurt and neither are the other two people?

What is it in that relationship that bothers you? Is it the comfort and the acceptance that it is just for those few moments that are they have together? 

Or is it because you know its short lived and hence it may not be worth the effort that either one puts in? Why do you care if it conforms to your understanding of friendship or not? 

Love in any form cannot be contained within parameters laid. We make our own choices how to love someone and how much. Each one makes their choice, sometimes knowingly and many a times without the knowledge that you can love this one more person... 

So often it is that we know, the way we love a certain person, they will not ever and yet we chose to love them, because it isn’t in our hands. Then the choice you are left with is how much you want to give to that unrequited love.

Why would it concern, let alone bother anyone how much you invest in your relationship with someone. If I do hundred things for someone, I know that more than anything else I get in return it is that smile and I get to see those eyes twinkle with mischief, knowing that I will get bullied into agreeing to anything. 

While I know there nothing more than those few hours and days that I will get in my life, I also know that I have a life to live in which I shall not have the regret that I did not do all that I wanted to for that person. How can this bother someone else? How does it matter to them, if those small gestures are between us? Why do they have to mean anything to anyone? They could also mean nothing, but just small signs of gentle affection.

Every friend in my life has a different place and there have always been certain gestures reserved for each. While some can bully and order me, I am over protective about some and with some I am the child and with some I am the protector... but each one has a place of their own. 

Four years, two deaths and I have learnt to tell each of my friends what they mean to me, then why this questioning of why I would behave in a certain way with a certain person and not you. 

There are a millions things I would do for you and not for them. And all I expect in return from you and them is to know that you know I love you for a tomorrow may come when I might not be able to say it and then I don’t want to live or die with the regret that I never let you or them know that. 

I know I bring some amount of happiness in her life. Being her jester, the donkey, whose sole aim in life is to spoil her. 

So why would it matter and bother anyone, when even if it is for a few fleeting moments that I bring a smile on her face. How can that be wrong, when I am not asking for or expecting anything in return save for that smile. 

The joy of seeing someone you love happy because of something you did is priceless and I do not understand how it can bother anyone. Every person in the world deserves to feel loved and special and what is wrong if I make someone feel that way? Each individual has the right to feel that there’s this one person who loves them unconditionally and without any expectation and whose every effort is to make them smile. 

How can it bother another person, especially when it is someone you claim to love yourself? Why can you not let two people just those few stolen moments?


Keep your insecurities to yourself and let each one live!